Happy December and Another Update

 Good morning dear friends...

I wanted to pop in to say hello and to thank you so much for the amazing support I have received from you during what has been a very difficult year.

I may not blog much much it doesn't mean that I am not thinking of you nor am I unaware of how many of you have sent cards, emails, gifts and prayers for me and I hope you know how much that has helped on the darkest days, especially when I know you all have your own lives and troublesome times.

I woud very much like to say that I am moving forward and putting everything behind me but it would appear that life has other plans for me and this dreadful 'thing' just won't let me go. According to the all the blurb that you read, I am one of the "rare cases" that experience late effects to the cancer treatment, namely the radiotherapy and now it has has an adverse affect on my lung leaving me breathless and once again having to change my lifestyle. 

I had been experiencing a number of things that didn't seem quite right and so I have been in and out of hospitals, with all manner of scans, bloods, meds etc. and my poor brain is fogged by it all, I'm just glad I pushed the issue with the doctors as nobody warned me of what could come.

I have made Christmas cards and they will be posted out to you and should I be able to do some photographing I will share more paintings for you. You know that creating be it with fabric or paint is my release but I have to take these meds right now and they even affect my eyesight as well as my brain so we'll see.

Next week I am back with the oncologist and hopefully I will have some answers and of course my hope is that I will recover eventually and everything I have endured this year, not just physical but emotionally will not have all been for nothing. I am or was scheduled for more surgery on my scars in January and I am still receiving draining and I probably know more about the whys and wherefores of breast cancer that I ever wanted but such is life.

 

Be safe my friends and I will be thinking of you

 

Hugs and love

 

~ Ros ~

Just a Few

 Hello friends...

I'm getting slightly fed up...I had hoped to be going back to my class today and seeing old friends, but it isn't happening...sigh

 

For the past couple of weeks the radiation burns have really been painful despite the products I am applying. I look like I fell on a barbecue and feel like it too. I can cope with the joint pains, the mouth ulcers and the hot flushes etc., All part and parcel of the treatment and drugs but with the high temperatures we've experienced this past week I feel exhausted and yeah, a little sorry for myself today...sorry.

 

Anyway, just ignore my moaning - I have a few cards to share with you which will be crossing the pond.

 

This first one was for a friend here in the UK who needed a little pick me up

The others...

 

 

You can see in a few of these that I am still using my stamps, stencils and embossing powder occasionally,

and I have gone back to using cardstock to paint on lately. The sea quotes are stamps from Inkylicious.

Actually, I got to go on a ship recently... We didn't sail anywhere, my husband had booked a day out for us to view the ship Ambition at our Liverpool Cruise Terminal and enjoy a beautiful lunch - It did cheer me up, even though I had a meltdown the night before thinking I wouldn't be able to make it. I'm so glad I did.

Be safe my friends and enjoy the wonderful season of Autumn

~ Ros ~

Another Two Months ...

Hello and good morning

Well it's just a short post to update you and to once again thank you for yet more cards received.

I finally finished my 3 week course of radiotherapy last week...YAY!!

I'm feeling okay but as to be expected, I tire easily. I have been told to expect the worse of the symptoms to affect me 10 - 14 days after treatment but I'm staying optimistic. Come Christmas I should be well on the way to being back to 'me' and putting this past year behind me.

I've still kept busy when I can though I don't have any paintings to share with you just now as painting has taken a back seat for awhile but I do have a photo of me leaving radiotherapy behind, with Mikey and a dear friend who has been with me every step of the way...

I'm sending hugs and love and grateful thanks for sticking with me.

~ Ros ~

Two Months Later....

Good morning friends

First of all I want to say a huge thank you for all the cards, messages, prayers and well wishes I have been delighted to have received. I am overwhelmed with your kindness and caring thoughts. I wished I could write to each of you personally but this will have to suffice for now.

Cancer is a lonely road with friends and family all having to stay on the sidelines urging you on and I have the best- Yesterday I got the best news ever... I beat it! In all the weeks I have been seeing my consultant, this was the first time the news was good and it couldn't have been better.

My blog has always been my journal .. I've never been afraid to share the good the bad and the ugly and who knows, maybe someone reads something that they can relate to and it helps.

So these past 2 months have been very rough and my journey is far from over having had to undergo a double mastectomy and node removal but I can see a light at the end of a dark tunnel. The NHS have been incredible and I am forever in their debt. 

 

On the 26th May I underwent surgery and came home later that evening with nothing more than a packet of paracetomol... I know a lot of people gasped at that. There is nothing like your own home, so I was very happy to climb into my own bed.  

Everything went well with the surgery but I have been plagued with painful seromas so I go back 2/3 times a week whenever I feel the need and they drain me. Once these have subsided I will start a course of radiotherapy, 5 days a week for 3 weeks as a preventative measure and I will stay on the hormone tablets for at least 5 years... Even saying that sounds good.  The healing will take a long while and I have to be patient but at least I have something a little stronger than paracetomol to help me.

I have still managed to do some sewing and painting, though I didn't get to photograph them but I did find 2 that you hadn't seen

This was for our Cornish cousins and they loved it

And this was for a friend of a friend who also had to have an operation.

 

We are enjoying a lovely summer here which is always a bonus.

I hope you are all well and life is being kind to you.

 I'm not sure when I will drop by again, but till then I send my love and thanks

~ Ros ~

 

Painted Minitures

 Hello friends...

First of all, thank you so much for your wishes, cyber hugs, prayers and the lovely cards I've received since my last post, I am so very grateful to have such amazing support.

It's been a whirlwind of hospital appointments and next week 2 more visits for more biopsies and scans. There's been so much to take in and come to terms with (and a few melt downs) but in between I find a little time to visit my colourful world of paint - even if they are just minitures. But I like that I can turn them into cards... I hope you enjoy seeing them

I only wish that the weather here was as colourful

Have a great day

~ Ros ~

It's me...

 Hello...

I hope this finds you well and enjoying the start of Spring.

So lots has happened since I last posted - Yes we got a 4 day break in Majorca and the weather was fabulous and we really enjoyed it

This was taken after a long day walking around Palma

We did a lot of walking in sunshine whilst the UK had nothing but rain.

I've also been painting ...A lot! Not everything turns out well but it takes me to a good place and if you read on you will understand

Yesterday I was diagnosed with breast cancer...

 

Yep, someone decided I didn't have enough to deal with but at least I now know - It has been the waiting, the not knowing that has been hard to deal with. Having time away was a welcome distraction.

I had to undergo quite a lot of biopsies, scan etc, and yesterday another MRI but I've been lucky... Crazy you may think but the prognosis is good thus far and hopefully the MRI won't change that. Next week I will know for sure and be scheduled for surgery with a further treatment plan.

There is no history of breast cancer in my maternal family and I was shocked to hear that 1 in every 8 post menopausal women will get the type of cancer I have... There was nothing I did or took that made it happen.

 

So you see why painting has been my obsession, my saving grace and why I really haven't wanted to blog either.

Today I will share a random selection of the paintings I've done, they are not the easiest to photograph, cards are so much easier...

 

 

 

Ok...I will post whenever I can to let you know how things are going, I also have to see my neuro consultant next week at the same hospital so 2 more visits in one week but I'll take each day as it comes.

One last share ... I saw this and it fits me perfectly

 

 

Be safe my friends 

Hugs

~ Ros