Hello there... How are you?
Well this morning I had my first appointment at the neuro centre and with Mikey alongside of me we listened to what the doctor had to say. I had hoped that with surgery, I would regain the feeling etc., in my hands, something similar to the lower spine surgery I had. Sadly this is not the case. Whilst there may be a small chance it will improve, it's more likely the damage to the nerves is permanent. Surgery can only halt the progression. It wasn't what I wanted or expected to hear...
I couldn't bear the thought of not being able to use my hands at all and do all the things that I love and as the doctor said, better to do what I love badly than never be able to do it at all. Even badly is frustrating for me but I continue to try. So I have opted for surgery I am now waiting to see a consultant in the forth coming weeks.
In the meantime I have continued trying to sew - even got hubby to thread the needles and hold things. I get brain fog a lot and that doesn't help. I've also had to resort to having help around the house and Sue (the neice of my BF Beryl who passed away a few years ago) comes over once a week. She needs the money and I need the help so it's a win win, plus we get to chat a lot. I managed to make 5 bunny bags for 5 of her 6 granddaughters for Easter..
As a surprise I also made her a little black bag that she wanted and though my sewing is far from perfect and it takes me a long time, she was thrilled with it
I won't give up and I am even going to attempt some painting again, even if it is badly Lol!
Friends have been amazing and thank you all for the lovely cards and wishes. I got to go to lunch twice last week. A monthly meet with my 2 GF's and the keep fit class also had a belated get together lunch which was held at my DH's golf club so he had a word before hand with the staff who kindly helped me so I didn't have to struggle carrying anything.
I know there are worse things going on in the world and I am so lucky to have my friends here and in blogland to encourage me and allow me to share.
Sending hugs to you all
~ Ros ~