Update

 Hello there... How are you?

I'm so sorry I haven't been visiting you and I don't have any cards to share yet but I wanted to give you an update on things. DH has got over his heart attack, though he remains anxious but is doing fine really. He's 9 years older than me so I still have quite a bit to deal with as he doesn't always cope with things. 

As for me, I've now lost the sensation in my left hand, though thankfully unlike the right arm hand and neck, it doesn't cause me much pain.

Well this morning I had my first appointment at the neuro centre and with Mikey alongside of me we listened to what the doctor had to say. I had hoped that with surgery, I would regain the feeling etc., in my hands, something similar to the lower spine surgery I had. Sadly this is not the case. Whilst there may be a small chance it will improve, it's more likely the damage to the nerves is permanent. Surgery can only halt the progression. It wasn't what I wanted or expected to hear...

I couldn't bear the thought of not being able to use my hands at all and do all the things that I love and as the doctor said, better to do what I love badly than never be able to do it at all. Even badly is frustrating for me but I continue to try. So I have opted for surgery I am now waiting to see a consultant in the forth coming weeks. 

In the meantime I have continued trying to sew - even got hubby to thread the needles and hold things. I get brain fog a lot and that doesn't help. I've also had to resort to having help around the house and Sue (the neice of my BF Beryl who passed away a few years ago) comes over once a week. She needs the money and I need the help so it's a win win, plus we get to chat a lot. I managed to make 5 bunny bags for 5 of her 6 granddaughters for Easter..

As a surprise I also made her a little black bag that she wanted and though my sewing is far from perfect and it takes me a long time, she was thrilled with it

I won't give up and I am even going to attempt some painting again, even if it is badly Lol!

Friends have been amazing and thank you all for the lovely cards and wishes. I got to go to lunch twice last week. A monthly meet with my 2 GF's and the keep fit class also had a belated get together lunch which was held at my DH's golf club so he had a word before hand with the staff who kindly helped me so I didn't have to struggle carrying anything.

I know there are worse things going on in the world and I am so lucky to have my friends here and in blogland to encourage me and allow me to share.

Sending hugs to you all

~ Ros ~